I was having a particularly challenging morning today and it was triggered by the news that I read on the internet. I was just browsing my emails and not guarding my sensitivity level because it was early and the brazen and aggressive news hit me smack dab in my heart and my head. I immediately felt restless and nervous about what is happening to the our beautiful planet, our country and the many innocent souls who are the hardest hit by greed and ignorance.
When circumstances, people or situations hit us over the head because we were caught off guard, it is very useful to have a few time tested tools available to apply to our current mind set or we will be drawn into the energy, emotional drama or the dominant attitude being expressed.
I was suddenly feeling anxious and my plan for the morning had been ease and grace, doing my meditation, staying centered and calm and the opposite came forth because I had been triggered and had no healthy screen in place.
Once again, God brought me to a challenge that was going to stretch my inner life skills to work through the feelings of fear and insecurity that came up when I read a few of my emails.
I realized that I was barely alert and I needed to be kind and accepting of myself where I was at, in the moment. Not that I should pamper myself and play out “poor me” scenarios. I was aware that I needed to be compassionate and conscious and I needed a healthy strategy to find a way to gently shift my gears.
I went for a short ride with my dog to Masters Market at Ananda Village and picked up one of my favorite breakfast sandwich and then went to share some extra fresh tomatoes I had with a friend. If we are too absorbed in our own suffering it is time to give more generously of ourselves. I had to break out of self concern and give my energy to help someone else. Giving of ourselves when we are challenged or moody, frustrated or upset is the best way to utilize our misdirected energy. Be generous with our lives and we simply can’t out-give God or the universe. With a loving and empowering attitude the energy will shift and change and the thunder storm will pass.
Know that You are Loved, Rev. Barb